The Last Drag Lyrics

Getting off drugs is so easy When you're not really on them But everyone thinks you're on them And those same people think they're gonna Save you So, I'm on my way to redemption And I'm hoping to be forgiven I'm really so fucking sorry But first I'm gonna throw myself the best detox Party This is my detox This is my detox This is my detox This is my detox And I'll cry if I want to This is my detox And I'll get high if I want to This is my detox Don't call it a vacation I'm gonna detox through re-toxification This is my metox cuz it's all about me Where is my pillbox need a few oxy This is my detox And I'll cry if I want to This is my detox And I'll get high if I want to This is my detox And I'll lie if I want to This is my detox I can do it without you Whatever is broken I can glue it without you This is my detox I'll get high if I want to This is my detox This is my detox This is my detox This is my detox This is my detox This is my detox This is my detox This is my detox This is my detox A pool powder party just before I get sick And then a Mandy Mitchell brunch and a lithium picnic A dozen of dommes, a few erotic dancers Don't ask me the questions if you don't want the answers I already told you that I'm not the one cheating Sex is not the same as an intimate beating This is my detox I'll do whatever I want to This is my detox This is my detox This is my detox This is my detox This is my detox I'll feel nothing as I take my last drag Snort the biggest pile And put my head in a plastic bag I don't wanna die, I just wanna disappear I thought I was so transparent, but clearly, I'm so unclear No one understands me, I doubt they ever will So, I'll stay on the powder, the drink, and the pain pill Get my shit in order and sign my last will, and testament With resentment for the past 40 and 5 years I knew it was over and done for When they stopped pickin' up the phone Only your oldest and best friends can make you feel so alone If I wasn't told it, so many times I never would have thought That it's not really a lie If you never get caught I had an addiction from years of affliction More than occasional minor and major abrasions Dispunktual made up equations That never made sense to a mathematician Not an adult, an experienced kid on the spectrum Who found a plectrum And made it his scalpel for cutting his skin like virgin vinyl Posing Suicidal This is my detox this is what I deserve This is a drilling a hole in the most sensitive nerve And I don't really want it But I want how it makes me Love the terrible places it takes me I love how it breaks me Cuz now I'm only happy, when I am broken When I am cokin' When someone's choking me out How are you supposed to go to rehab and rehabilitate How can you detox [?] This is my detox This is my detox This is my detox Trough This is my detox From you!